Birds Eye View

Sometimes... it's good to take a birds eye view of our own lives.

My life has been one no one's really understood (work/play balance). And my jobs have been all over the map. I was never one who knew what they wanted to do and didn't follow a one track highway to a career. Which honestly would have been nice and helpful.

I've been a waitress, a babysitter, a teacher, a manager of an ice cream shop, an assistant to an interior designer, a stand up comedian, a model, a fashion stylist, a brand ambassador, a buyer for a boutique, an anti-human trafficking advocate, an intergroup dialogue facilitator, a start-up failure, a contestant on The Bachelor (long story - had to thrown that one in there 😂) I mean... the list could go on. And I'm just referring to my adult years.

I remember feeling directionless and discouraged yet I was traveling and loving and living in a beautiful world around me. But my career? My "purpose"? Couldn't find my sweet spot.

Until my heart broke. For the millionth time. In a million ways. And after the hit I stayed low. Instead of picking myself right back up or being in denial like I often resort to (sorry to say). I needed care. I needed to feel. I needed to know other stories of heart wrecks and wins. I needed a table. With strangers and friends. With wine and food. In creation over conversation. I needed a birds eye view of my life.

All these random jobs that were all so different from each other and seemed to lead to nowhere... now I see were so important in growing and learning and it's prepared me for this table.

Standing in front of strangers and making them laugh in the midst of despair, listening, serving, relating, designing, self-starting... each job that I thought was pointless have been so purposeful. And I haven't seen until now. What lead me to my passion was my pain. Not a degree - although they are wonderful and I have one. But my simple desire for some good old honest table talk.

I encourage you to fly up today. Get out of the zoomed in focus we often have and catch a birds eye view. Look around. See where you are and where you've been, the people past and present, and the divinity of it all.